When we are feeling stuck we can sometimes mistake our soul’s desire for transformation for our ego’s desire for novelty. All transformation involves change, but not all change includes transformation. The ego is novelty seeking. It craves change for the sake of change. The soul is transformation seeking. It craves evolution and growth for the sake of evolution and growth.
The ego’s desire for novelty is endless and usually leads to disappointment and dissatisfaction. No matter how hard we strive to satisfy our ego’s desires it is never enough. We never have enough money, fame, power or prestige. The excitement from novel experiences soon fades and we are left once more with our old self.
That’s because the novelty seeking is actually our soul’s desire for growth and transformation being expressed through the ego. What we are actually dissatisfied with is our state of being. What we are actually craving is a shift in being.
All the external efforting is our ego trying to satisfy our soul’s desire for evolution. However, external efforting is a very inefficient means of achieving transformation in being. It is usually a lateral move. That’s because we can only create externally from the state of consciousness we possess internally. So our ego’s efforts at transformation tend to create and recreate our egoic patterns in myriad externalized forms. In circumstances that may appear outwardly different, but that resonate at the same old state consciousness.
True transformation is an inside out process. A shift in being must occur at the level of being. That means soul work and work in consciousness. It means doing effective spiritual practices, healing, and deep reflection.
The transformational process is one of identifying less and less with our ego, and more and more with our true self. The shift in being is a shift in orientation. Instead of creating from the outside in, we start creating from the inside out from a higher order of consciousness. Instead of being motivated be extrinsic values we start being motivated by intrinsic values.
When we get on the transformational path we start craving external change less and internal change more. Instead of being motivated by external rewards, we seek internal rewards. We stop seeking happiness in fancy cars, big houses, and overflowing bank accounts and instead find it by cultivating a state of being that is peaceful, joyful, loving, and abundant.
Ironically, when we start creating from the inside out things in the external world flow to us with less effort and in greater abundance, because we are creating from a higher order of consciousness. So instead of trying to impact the world from the ego’s deficit, we start attracting what is compatible with our inner abundance.